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I did something a little ballsy and possibly stupid last week - I wrote to my former friend Lil. I haven't heard from or tried to contact her since last June, (well, got an email from her by mistake at Christmas) but suddenly last week I missed her a lot. For some reason, I got to thinking about my life and what I've done with it and what I would have done differently (I guess a lot of this was brought on by the return of Terry) and I thought you know, out of all the things I've done, all the things that have been done to me, the one thing I really regret is that Lil and I are no longer friends. In that mistakenly sent email at Christmas, she mentioned she and Sam got engaged and are getting married this summer. Ever since she and I became friends, we'd been talking about her wedding, how I'd be a bridesmaid, her sister and I would be in charge of decorating the hall for the reception...basically planning the whole shebang, and now she's doing it all without me and I feel quite sad. Not that I want to be invited to the wedding or anything now - it simply wouldn't be appropriate, but it makes me sad that we've drifted so far apart. So I decided screw it, I wrote down everything I was thinking and mailed it off last week. I haven't heard back from her, so we'll see where this goes, if anywhere.

Well then...

That didn't work. My former friend emailed me this morning and apparently she's perfectly happy to hold a grudge forever. It seems when we got into this thing last June, I tried to email my sister with the things Lily had written to me, with a few comments of my own attached (according to Lily, I called her a selfish immature bitch and said her mother obviously didn't teach her any manners) but instead of being sent to my sister, they got sent back to Lily. I was in an absolute rage at the time, so I can well imagine that I was just pressing random buttons or something and pressed reply instead of forward or something. Anyway, Lily seems to be still quite upset about my remarks and despite the many months that have passed, she is unwilling to forgive and forget. Oh well, so be it. It's too bad, she had been the best friend I'd ever had, but such is life.